So, as always I can never think of a good title. I can write poetry and short stories and the like, but I can't come up with a good title for journal entries. tsk tsk tsk

Anyways.....my life has become a whole lot simpler. I don't live in LA anymore, I don't live with my gf anymore, and (the thing I am happiest about) I don't live pay check to pay check anymore. That all happened pre-summer.

To make my life more interesting, I went into a relationship RIGHT after breaking up with my last gf and it ended terribly. Things were great and then (as if a switch had been flicked) it wasn't. Everything that I was afraid of happening, but would never have suspected to occur, happened and it shattered my happiness in an instant.

Something my friends told me, is that I put everything I have into relationships, which is very very true. This one more so then any of the rest. And the first person i ever opened up my heart nay my very soul to shot me down and then stomped on me. I love being overly dramatic

I'm spacing things out this way to make it easier to read, I'm not sure if anyone I actually subscribe to or vis a versa actually gets on anymore, but hey a little venting for me is always good.

So, right now I'm grappling with lots of dark and negative emotions. Thankfully I have been through all this before, so its no sooooo bad. I'm optimistic. Its just that I have dreams all the time that keep reminding me and my imagination is betraying me.

BUT! I persevere! I move on and hopefully I can put out something other then dark and angry poetry. I have a story in the works, that I actually wrote for the previously mention object of my tiny bit of despair, that I want to put up once its done. The motivation for writing it is gone, but I put a lot of work into it and I want to finish it; but until I defeat my emotions I probably won't work on it.

Other then that life is peachy! Now I have more time to get my life back on track and get my career started. YAY! Right now I am trying to get A+ certified and hopefully I can do that before spring of next year (yes I know I am quite slow) I just need to get into the habit of studying every day and then I'll have a shot at my goal

Well I could blabber on about this and that forever, so I'll just end it here. If you got this far, congratultions you get a gold star! Fin